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Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.

James 1:27

There’s a longing that’s been inside of me since about high school. In fact, I remember sitting in the gym bleachers and saying it to my friends out loud for the first time. “I want to adopt someday.” The words surprised even me because I hadn’t always felt that way. It was as if the Lord physically reached out and placed the desire on the shelf of my soul, and suddenly, there it sat.

Since that time, I’ve gotten married and given birth to two amazing, God-sent little girls. In many ways, our family looks and feels complete. Yet there remains a slight uneasiness in me and a hunch that our story is not yet finished. Over the years, my husband and I have talked many times about adoption. He gets excited talking about the possibility, just like me. He is a wonderful father and has always had a gift for reaching out to underprivileged and overlooked kids. I know he would make a great adoptive dad.

However, I noticed that most of the time when we talked about adopting, it was me who brought it up. I’ve read and heard enough to know this is something for which both parents need to be 110 percent all in. And I certainly didn’t want to be pushing him toward something he didn’t really desire. So I told myself that I would stop bringing it up and pray about it instead. If adoption was a desire of his heart, he would bring it up on his own.

I was surprised and thrilled last week when he told me he’d been doing some thinking and “looking online at adoption websites.” I thanked God for the confirmation that we really were on the same page.

I don’t feel that this is the time for us to begin the adoption process. And my husband doesn’t either. There are several factors in our lives that we need to work through first. But I’m hopeful that the day will come when God says, “Now.” Indeed, I’ll be over the moon.

In the meantime, I’ll continue what I’ve been doing. I’ll study up on the ins and outs, ups and downs of adoption. I’ll read articles and blogs. I’ll pray that God guides us through each step and choice in life. And I’ll keep giving my heart and soul to the two precious daughters He has entrusted to us already, trusting that He knows the plans He has for us, plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).