The day Tracey’s post on control posted, I was in a control battle myself. It was a different scenario, but Tracey’s transparent story hit home with me!

I was reminded that our precious foster child, “Sweet Pea,” does not belong to us. We parent and love her like she is. She has been in our home a year now, and for the most part, I’ve been able to make most of the decisions for her care. But then I received a call with instructions that I disagreed with. At first I was stunned, and then the anger rolled over me. I asked other foster parents for wisdom. I explained the situation to another caseworker involved. I was so frustrated because I know this child better than anyone else on this earth, and I knew the situation would bring her pain. But the bottom line was that I had to submit.

[pullquote]10“See that you do not look down on one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven.”  Matthew 18:10 (NIV)[/pullquote]

I was devastated. I was shaking and weepy. If you knew the situation, you would realize that I was making a mountain out of a molehill. I read Tracey’s story and realized that my grief was more over my loss of control than it was out of concern for Sweet Pea. Yes, she would have a difficult time, but she would adjust. But what would I do with my control issue?

It brought me to my knees. Literally. And that is exactly where I needed to be. I gave the situation over to God. While praying, I was reminded that Sweet Pea has her own angel watching over her. She belongs to the Father just like my other three children. He is in control, and I’m not only okay with that, I’m grateful! I may not be able to control what happens in her life, but I can rest in knowing that she is being watched over when I’m not able to watch over her.