Last Updated on March 23, 2018
I am finding that God is always at work, caring for each detail of my life. Putting into place things I could not have fathomed. I am learning that God knows all and is putting things in place according to His plan, even years in advance. Read Part 1 Here
Nineteen years ago, I gave birth to my third son. He is my fourth child in three and one half years and the pregnancy was very difficult. After his birth I was on IV antibiotics for over three months trying to kill an infection that would grow a different strain with each new medicine.
This son has an exuberant zeal for life; no ledge was too high to jump from, no puddle too deep to miss jumping in. My husband, Ray, said he had one speed, “FAST!”
I love that God makes all our children different. All have different personalities, different desires, different dreams and different journeys. Like me, my son is very passionate about right and wrong. In high school, he shared Christ publicly and privately to his friends calling them to live for Him and depend on Him when they needed an anchor.
He is good looking, a great musician, and an incredible athlete. I always thought he would break his neck as he did back flip after back flip anywhere there was an open space and death defying tricks on our trampoline. He has a great personality and knows no strangers. He is loyal to his family and friends and very respectful.
About three months ago, he moved out for the second time. It is so hard for me to see him being deceived by the enemy of God. I watched it begin as he entered high school; going from a straight ‘A’ student to thinking school was too difficult for him. He shared with me some of his failures and believes that they are worse than any of the rest of our family. I wonder if he believes that God has a sin scale. (If that were the case, I would have tipped the scales, myself, long ago.)
I have spent many sleepless nights praying for him, crying for him, and trusting that God’s will be done in his life. It is hard, extremely difficult, not to go ahead and take matters in my own hands like Sarah did (Genesis 16:3) trying to make things happen so that you get your desired results.
It’s hard to wait on God. But I believe his promise in Psalm 37:25, “I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging for bread.”
So I began a new journey knowing that God is always at work, caring for each detail of my life. Putting into place things I could not have fathomed. I am learning that God knows all and is putting things in place according to His plan, even years in advance. Because…
“God IS bigger than the boogie man; He’s bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV. God IS bigger than the boogie man and he’s watching out for you and me.” Jr. Asparagus – Veggie Tales
Praying for you, Robyn, and for your precious son! I LOVED the Veggie Tales quote…that exemplifies the season of life I'm in right now…and it just happens to one of my boys' favorite songs!
What I love about you is that your just so honest and real with whatever God is teaching you and you love to share that with others no matter what the outcome is going to be. You are such an encouragement! I still need to order that book of yours! Miss the whole McKelvy gang! Will be praying for you guys and keep the blogs coming! 🙂
Praying for you, Robyn. Thanks for sharing. I know many other mothers who are experiencing your pain. Thanks for giving them a voice.
BTW, I love that Veggie Tales song:-)
Hey, Robyn. I'm so sorry to hear about your son moving out. Sometimes God needs to take us on those field trips before we are ready to learn what He is teaching us. I have so many younger ladies say, "It will be SO nice when our kids are grown up. We won't have to worry so much about them." Sorry girls, the bigger adult kids just bring bigger problems to us to hand over the the Lord. Praying for you and Ray as you use your wisdom and discernment in dealing with your kiddo.
Thanks for sharing this struggle. We are going through a similar time with our precious 19 year old daughter. I'll be praying for you!
Jane,
I will pray for you, too. I love that we have this forum where we can share what we are going through and know that there are others who can relate, are in the same stage or have walked through it. We need to pray for one another. Thanks for your prayers. I pray God's redemption for our children as HE has redeemed us!
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Praying for you, your husband, and your son, Robyn!
Miss Robyn remember the scripture: “Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it” (Proverbs 22:6). He’ll be back!
Robyn, my heart hurts for the sadness and concern over your son. Our youngest daughter, too, is searching away from her roots. We are praying for your son, that he returns to his first love, Jesus! Let’s be more like Mary, trusting that God will use this pain for His glory.