HIS Way… Not Mine (part 2)
I am finding that God is always at work, caring for each detail of my life. Putting into place things I could not have fathomed. I am learning that God knows all and is putting things in place according to His plan, even years in advance. Read Part 1 Here
Nineteen years ago, I gave birth to my third son. He is my fourth child in three and one half years and the pregnancy was very difficult. After his birth I was on IV antibiotics for over three months trying to kill an infection that would grow a different strain with each new medicine.
This son has an exuberant zeal for life; no ledge was too high to jump from, no puddle too deep to miss jumping in. My husband, Ray, said he had one speed, “FAST!”
I love that God makes all our children different. All have different personalities, different desires, different dreams and different journeys. Like me, my son is very passionate about right and wrong. In high school, he shared Christ publicly and privately to his friends calling them to live for Him and depend on Him when they needed an anchor.
He is good looking, a great musician, and an incredible athlete. I always thought he would break his neck as he did back flip after back flip anywhere there was an open space and death defying tricks on our trampoline. He has a great personality and knows no strangers. He is loyal to his family and friends and very respectful.
About three months ago, he moved out for the second time. It is so hard for me to see him being deceived by the enemy of God. I watched it begin as he entered high school; going from a straight ‘A’ student to thinking school was too difficult for him. He shared with me some of his failures and believes that they are worse than any of the rest of our family. I wonder if he believes that God has a sin scale. (If that were the case, I would have tipped the scales, myself, long ago.)
I have spent many sleepless nights praying for him, crying for him, and trusting that God’s will be done in his life. It is hard, extremely difficult, not to go ahead and take matters in my own hands like Sarah did (Genesis 16:3) trying to make things happen so that you get your desired results.
It’s hard to wait on God. But I believe his promise in Psalm 37:25, “I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging for bread.”
So I began a new journey knowing that God is always at work, caring for each detail of my life. Putting into place things I could not have fathomed. I am learning that God knows all and is putting things in place according to His plan, even years in advance. Because…
“God IS bigger than the boogie man; He’s bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV. God IS bigger than the boogie man and he’s watching out for you and me.” Jr. Asparagus – Veggie Tales