Chameleon Mom

“Please close our foster home…” These were very painful words to type. The decision to close our home to fostering was far harder to make than the decision to open our home and our hearts to children in foster care. But it was a necessary decision to allow us to focus on healing and bonding after an adoption and to also have time to minister to other foster families.

The next few months felt odd. No phone calls from the Department of Children and Family Services asking if we could care for a child in need. Only counting to five when rounding up my children, planning a menu, grocery shopping. Moments of panic, sure I had left someone behind. Strange dreams of losing a child. In some moments, I felt like a failure: unable to juggle my ministry, a family with diverse needs, and foster care.

Our community of friends had evolved to mostly foster families, others who understood the triumphs and struggles we endured. Would we still fit in? Was I having an identity crisis?

I slowly realized that my identity was still the same: a Christ-follower, wife, and mother. My surroundings had changed, not my identity. I am resilient. I am a… ummm… a chameleon mom. Yep, that’s right. My daily life is evolving and so must I. But I can build on my former “color” (experiences) to help others with their difficulties and rejoice with their successes.

This is one of many background changes I will experience. Too soon, I will transition into a mother of college-age children while still parenting grade-schoolers, our family will expand with children-in-law and grandchildren. Careers may change, moves may be required, hardship will come, but so will joy. Sometimes with excitement and sometimes with tears, my colors will change but my hope and my faith will always remain.

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3 thoughts on “Chameleon Mom

  1. I’ve told you several times, I wouldn’t be here without you! I wish you could understand how you are leaving a legacy, not only to your children and family, but to so many other families. You are one of my best role-models and a huge inspiration. I can only imagine the difficulty of closing your home, but you should never feel as though you have failed. You are still blessing more kids than you will ever imagine through other families. And you are definitely blessing other families through your ministry (especially mine)! Love you and keep your head up! I have know doubt that God looks down on you and smiles every day!

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  2. So true, Julia. Sometimes life redefines us, but we are resilient and we can use our experiences to encourage others. Thanks for the great post. 🙂

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